I am so sorry......what job would you like, or what interests you? I don't think you have ruined your life; perhaps you could frame it in another way, such as.......what I did, did not turn out the way I expected, and now I have to make different decisions. At 24, you probably have a long life to live. You should be proud of yourself for working so hard! You said that you are so over school, so now you can try and figure out what you really want to do. You can begin to make friends and have a social life. Life has disappointments and roadblocks, but we can decide how to cope with them (I know it is hard). I don't say any of this to minimize how you feel, but that you will feel a little hopeful. I am 74......If you could do anything you wanted to, what would it be?