So Sorry you're struggling! You want to share a little bit more? i agree with the wise and wonderful TunedOut about you being in my Prayers. Please do not give up. Hugs. Feel free to vent here. Stay Safe. Please do keep us updated if you want. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Breaking Dawn, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!