i think it depends on the day. Sometimes i feel in a better mood and sometimes i have to put into a little bit more effort. i am not sure what that depends on exactly but i think that some external circumstances can influence that as Well, such as some Friends or even the weather for me. Sorry if you're feelint that way yourself. Please do not give up. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @BethRags, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!