It's so very hard when I'm angry with you. I don't know how to process that. It's so incongruous with just, well, everything. It took a lot today for me to even say that I am disappointed, let alone to finally admit that yes, I am also angry with you and that yes there is still old anger from a long time ago over this same thing. It took a lot to do that because I am also always and forever so grateful to you for so much, that I feel like I've no right to be angry with you. But I'm going to be an adult and hold the feelings myself, go swimming this afternoon and release the anger into the water, journal it, bla bla bla. I will not be emailing you and expecting you to hold this crap for me. Not this time. Right now I don't want you at all. Yes, Artie is pissed.