Thanks so much for posting this information. I can tell you for a fact that vets feel very lonely, whether they continue on active duty or return to civilian life. Some people just cannot tell their experiences. We don't know how ppl will react, or we get the inappropriate reaction and it just closes the door on future attempts.

Finding PC and some other survivor sites has been a huge blessing for me. And even here I find that some things are such that i cannot post them. A couple things I've been able to PM to someone after we developed a level of trust, but even there i felt like they would hate me when they found out what kinds of experiences I've had or what secrets I've kept.

They did not hate me. They were understanding and supportive. What a relief it was.

Some of these experiences are so terrible and we see no way out except to hasten an end to all the pain and turmoil. I was not suicidal when i found PC, but i was desperate to get an understanding of why I was acting the way I was...whether there was any connection with the past.

and now it is clear that there was a connection, and I'm making progress, thanks to ppl here.

Troy