And you're giving me hope by posting

" He asked if I could feel that moment when I shut down - and I really can. Then he asked if I could stay in that in between place a little longer to see what it would feel like. I did, and I talked, one sentence, and immediately my throat closed up, the room was spinning, next thing I knew T was on the couch next to me helping me get grounded, etc., etc. Not good.

But over the weekend, it hit me. I talked, and I DIDN'T die. I survived. Not that I literally thought I would die, but I think on some level, I kind of did."

This is where I am at. Last session i was in that between spot, and shut down. tonight i am working towards talking.
thank you for posting... i'll be remembering this tonight.

(((((((((((((((((((earthmama))))))))))))))))))))))) you're right - you didn't die. you got through. you were (are) very brave.
kiya