I’m trying but it’s tough today. I most likely have selective mutism. I can only talk to my mom, my therapist, and sometimes my brother. The same people I communicate through text with, I cannot talk to them in person. This includes close family members like my aunt and my uncle. I don’t even talk to my sister much anymore. I can work a retail job but not customer service related. I mostly have worked with 5-6 other people in a small department. When I get upset it’s always through text or email. When I am upset in person I just get quite. But also when I’m happy and sad I don’t show emotion. I know I have emotions. But it’s tough to physically show them to people except my mom. I am a strong believer in actions instead of words. Because for me it’s a literal thing. So I just do a good job at work or I hang out with people even if I don’t talk with them to show I do like them. Or I send nice texts to family members so they know I don’t hate them.
I’m trying to cope today but not really succeeding.
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