I did go out today for once. I went to a few retail stores and a few furniture stores. Funnily enough the only place I felt completely safe and not anxious was at the store (not the same one, different location) that I used to work at. I had my mom ask for an application and she got handed some card about doing it online. I’m getting ahead of myself though since I can’t start working until August. But it felt nice being in that store again. I was going to go out to eat but this heat is making me feel goofy. I’m at home now and I’m about to go out again but I’ll see. It’s for sure the heat and not the vaccine. All that stuff has passed. Whatever irritation I’m feeling now is PMS. The water is fine now.

I guess it’s just because I stayed inside all last summer but I was having a more then usual difficult time with the heat today. I went to McDonald’s to buy a Diet Coke just so I could get a cup of water. I’ve never done that before I’ve always turned to soda when I get thirsty. I gave the Diet Coke to my brother.

I got annoyed when I was in a store and the lady didn’t say hello to me and my mom but she said hello and asked what they were looking for and the sales and etc to the people behind us. I complained to my mom about it when we left and she said the cashier was most likely profiling the people behind us. Everyone else was friendly at the other stores.

Ok so I’ll admit my self esteem has been really low today and little things have set me off. It’s probably more PMS since one of the signs of PMDD is feeling that others are being critical of you. I just hope this week goes fast. When I was on birth control I could just skip the PMS week of the pack to get to my period faster. Now I just have to deal with the PMDD.