Last few days haven't been good for me, had a very bad drug-related hospital incident, been drinking, etc.

My doctor suggested rehab- which is something he has suggested in the past. I hate staying places overnight (especially places of medical nature).

I'm an independent person, I hate leaning on others for help, and always insist on tackling issues alone. My doctor pointed out that this is probably why I can't stay completely clean- because I won't accept anyone's help with it.

I kind of tell myself that I didn't have help getting into drugs so I shouldn't have help getting out, but I suppose an attitude like that doesn't help anyone?

I thought about AA or a group that meets weekly... but the idea of it kind of scares me.
Did anyone else/does anyone else have a 'fear' of accepting help with trying to quit substances?