Dear T,
I now have 4 separate email drafts to you. Yet, something is keeping me from sending any of them. Maybe I'll see what I feel like later.

I think maybe I know none of them fully express what I'm feeling right now--which is some sort of paternal longing, from some of what you said and what we discussed. And it's like I'm afraid if I express that, you'll pull way back. So I'm just trying to see if it passes.

Love,
LT