Wow - an unexpected landslide of comments. I guess it's to be expected though, under the circumstances.

@eskielover, I can understand how you may feel, but you sounded unsupportive by saying it's hard to feel sympathy if I choose to go back again. He is going into therapy. He knows it's a prerequisite for me being with him again.

And someone said that I don't love him because I talked about erectile dysfunction? That could not be more far from the truth. Just because I talked about what is dysfunctional doesn't erase the feelings I have for him, and still have for him.

I understand everyone's concerns. I am not saying that we're definitely getting back together. We've hung out a couple times since the concert, and it was really nice. I cannot say what is going to happen, but it feels right between us. Something does feel right. It's not just lust or infatuation. We have something between us that hasn't gone away. I've tried to hang out with another man - it made me realize how hard it is to truly find that certain chemistry in someone. And my husband and I have it between us. There were undeniable sparks flying between us at the concert - and not just lust or because of loneliness. I can be alone and have been before. There's something very natural and genuine there.

I don't know what's going to happen. I am going with how I feel right now and this feels right. I get it - that I've laid out all sorts of problems that have occurred and that I've described how unhealthy he's been for me. I guess I hope that therapy truly helps him - he's very willing, and wants me to give him a list of things to work on. It's going to take a long time. Perhaps I'm being stupid, but that's my decision and choice. I know I do still love him and that there is love there still between us. That's all I can say right now.