That makes sense on a level to me. My issue is more like, I want attention from people who I want to feel close with. It is something I'm sure that I can figure out over time, it is probably because I sometimes have the belief come up that they don't care. But I have that belief less and less and feel more and more connected for real. You expressed your own problematic belief, that you are "never good enough" and I recommend CBT to try and change this belief. With CBT you can observe, explore and reason about the things you do well and also reason about how it doesn't define your personal essence if you sometimes make mistakes. Good luck.