My anxiety is pretty bad today. I only had a coke and a Dr. Pepper I didn’t have any coffee. I took 4 Xanax. 3 at one time. I called my doctor to see if he can prescribe me visteril again. I never told him I went off it so he should be able to give it to me. But this Xanax issue is getting out of hand and I will run out before I can another refill.

I’m losing track of my days and my therapist at one point told me that was an ADD thing. But I thought it could also be a bipolar symptom. Basically I thought my surgery was 2 weeks from Friday and it’s actually a week from tomorrow. Which means we leave for the hotel in a week. It just kind of threw me off because I thought it was 2 weeks away. I don’t lose track of time this badly. I just at times feel like my mind is going.