Yeah but how do you feel attached to people you find pathetic and who yet hurt you? I hate to admit it, but my two h's were the lowest of the low, in many ways. Just as my parents were. I often hear on television people (on scripted shows, not reality tv!) saying, "oh i was raised to help someone in need" etc. Really? My parents didnt teach me any such standards. It was trick someone else before they trick you. If someone says they need help they are tricking you.

I have had that feeling of seeing my mother as a stranger in a different environment. I think its because they tried to control us, and now see that tactic has failed miserably. We are left stuck on the fence between their world and our own, foot down in neither.