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I have to say my marriage is similar with the no or little affection. this is my 4th marriage and I have to say that out of all them only one remained affectionate. not sure what it is about the male gender there. I don't think the grass is greener on the other side.

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No- I don't think the grass is greener either and I hope I don't start thinking that way. To be honest, I think that's one of my biggest fears. In fact, I know it is. I'm scared of trying again... the thought of going through this kind of pain again scares me like nothing else... yet love is the one thing I've always wanted. It's what drives me. Catch 22. I feel stuck and forever lost.

Thank you for replying, bebop.