So I suppose coming down off of a manic episode is hard for me to determine where my balance will be. I was hopeful that I found it by taking my current meds, 1500 depakote, 5mg resperidone, and 20mg propranolol(3x) but now I feel like blah! I was slower to lose motivation this time since it was a quick transition the first episode I had BUT I’m afraid my mood is going to keep going south. I don’t want to get out of bed when I don’t have my daughter with me. I don’t want to do as much as I wanted to a few weeks ago. I don’t know if I’m just being lazy or having a more mild depression. I don’t know if I’m over analyzing myself too much now that I know I have an illness. Like maybe I wouldn’t have thought this much into it if I was still in the dark about this. I’ve only known about it for a year and have had 2 manic episodes, so I haven’t had much experience going up and down. I know the first up and down was the worst and the second so far has been less hypomania and less depression.... and a smother transition... I just hate feeling like blah... like no point to doing things or getting up. I know I’m rambling here. Is anyone else in a funk right now even on meds? I wish they would help more. My next psych appointment I’m going to tell them so maybe they can pull back on how much I’m taking. Now that my mania is gone...