" I spent six months before I could talk about the trauma, and then another year doing nothing BUT talk about the trauma! "

This is actually really reassuring to me. I need it to be allowed to take as long as it takes. T has told me it can take as long as it needs to, with as much detail as it needs to have....but internally, I have this feeling of "hurry up!" - I guess because I want to hurry up and feel better. I *know* it doesn't work that way. I just want it to work that way.

I guess part of it is now that I've opened the door and started thinking and talking about it, it's scary. I've spent so many years NOT thinking/talking about it. It just feels really strange.