So Sorry things aren't going too wel! Please Do not give up! i agree with the wise and wonderful Bill3 about waiting a bit perhaps. Hugs. Perhaps you simply need some more time to make it work. Although i'd say a year is quite enough but everyone has their own time i think. Just give it a thougth and perhaps consider seeing him more if you're still unsure. Please keep us updated if you want to. Sending Love. Hope things will Improve soon. Do try your Best. Stay Safe. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @alpacalicious, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!