Today I was kind of mixed. I didn’t get to sleep last night until after 11:30 and then I didn’t get up until 9:30. Then I was crabby and tired but I managed to take a shower. I got food and then went back to sleep for half an hour around 11. I finally needed a plain black cup of coffee at 11:30 just to function. Now I feel ok. My family is over and they are doing chores and we are then going to have a barbecue. Despite the fact we don’t even have a grill yet. They have to run out and buy one from Lowe’s.

But basically today I’ve just been tired and slightly crabby until I drank plain black hot coffee from the keurig. Which I never drink. This stuff was pretty good. But my heart started pounding when moving a bookcase and I had to sit down. I’ve had one Xanax today.

I know I’m just having mood swings and anxiety and sleep issues because of my PMDD which should be over tomorrow or Tuesday and I also know I’m having all this stuff because I’m pretty anxious about my surgery on Friday. But I know things will get better soon and I’ll feel better soon.