Awww hon....you are most welcome....it sounds like you are doing all the right things...and you WILL get through this

Do all the good things you can for yourself and your system.....you are right...its not happening now, but I totally understand how it "feels" like you are right back there. Maybe you can put in a funny movie or watch a funny tv show too. That might help you to take your mind elsewhere....and you know what they say about laughter

((((((((((((((((((( BJ )))))))))))))))))))

sabby