He's getting busier with work but is making time to see me still. I am tired again. There is a part of me that wants to end this relationship since I am so tired. But, I do enjoy his companionship. He is sweet and kind to me. I can' say I am in love. I don't like it when I feel tired and overwhelmed. But, that is my problem, not his. I do like him much. He used to overwhelm me with love messages so I returned the favor. Now, we are becoming used to each other and he still says he wants me and misses me. I have been abused in the past and am scared of being in a relationship. I sometimes want to run away and end it, not because he is bad to me, but because I've been abused and don't know anything good about being with others. He is not abusive and is very good to me. I am like an abused puppy and wonder if when he does not text right away, if I am bad or he dislikes me. But, he always texts me. He is so sweet that it makes me wonder if I am worth it? So, I am exploring new territory. I have not told him about my illness and have not asked him about his illnesses. He has a physical flaw so he has some kind of illness, I believe. He has a tic or shaking disorder. It is very noticeable. I don't ask questions about it and when he does tic, I act like it is ok. So, I will wait until he tells me about it when he wants. I never asked him point blank about it. He sometimes spills things and makes a mess. But, I just say don't worry about it and smile. I adore him!! So, we both are flawed but we are flawless with each other. I do feel overwhelmed by his kindness and affection. I can't say I am in love yet but am feeling much positive energy from him. I don't know where we are heading. But, so far, our situation is great! I am happy for the most part. I wish I would not get scared and feel happier.