I am still trying to process the ending of my relationship with my soulmate over 2 years ago, a man who called me his bride while still married to another woman, living in another state.

At the time I was in that relationship I was also single handedly raising a teenage daughter and battling a case of ptsd/bipolar. Now that my daughter is an adult and I am no longer walking around with a diagnosis, he is nowhere to be found. He claims to be living in my city but I haven’t seen head nor tail of him since I walked away from him over 2 years ago.

My current boyfriend has made no proposals and I can’t decide if that’s better or worse. It took my ex fiancé 6 years to divorce his wife . Problem is I would much rather live in the fantasy world my ex fiancé created then the seemly future less reality with my current boyfriend who lives with his mother.