To be honest I think I was actually doing okay until I replied back to your email which I didn't ask for.

The post paeds exam high is fading and has been replaced with new exam prep lows.

I also feel pressure from my brother who just can't understand why I don't want to jump straight into working and thinks my idea of a extended break after I finish is ridiculous- but unlike him I didn't stay in London. He has had the option of going back home every week if he wanted to and had housemates. I lived alone and I haven't been home in more then 9 months. The highlight of my area has been the local supermarket.

I just feel like school took so much out of me that I want to recover and not be thrown into a new environment before I'm ready. if that's selfish then so be it. I can't look after anyone else until I put myself first.