tonight at t ... he handed me a copy of the police reports... i had given them to him when the boys were little... i didn't want them to find them and be hurt... now i am faced with hurting them and me as adults... i was wrong... he goes in to complete detail of my abuse... very specific... and some of the things michael had told them i forgot... i forgot that when they were talking about good and bad touches he curled up in a ball under the table... that he said his dad would kill him if he told... i can't get the picture of my little boy curled up in a fetal position ... i really need to si