Hello all, been a while since I last posted.

So I am in a very difficult place right now. This is very common: often times I feel like I'm headed in the right direction. There's a great quote:
"I see the light at the end of the tunnel. Somebody tell me, it's not a train."

This was very common when I was suffering from undiagnosed Bipolar Disorder. Mania would hit me: the birds would start chipring melodies, the sun would be brighter, and I would be able to survive on less sleep.

This is something different: what's happening now is that I'll go through a couple weeks where I'm able to abstain from a vice: binging on chocolate late at night. This was going great in May: I substituted dates and apricots for ice cream and candy. I was now able to sleep better, the weight started falling off, and I felt more in control during the day.

My 20th anniversary was last week, as well as my son's 7th birthday. Very happy occasions, but there was a downfall: there were a lot of desserts that I was unable to resist: creme brulee, chocolate cake, KitKats, M&M's etc.

As they say, "the higher the high, the lower the low." The weekend was great: my wife and I went for a nice dinner and got a nice hotel room in the city. Then Monday hit and the delayed reaction: I couldn't get out of bed, I felt complete brain fog, chills, and total lack of motivation.

One main problem is that I have problems adjusting from my routine. Even if it's something very minor and short-lived. I spent Saturday night away from my comfortable bed, and normal routing of having yogurt and coffee.

I feel so weak, as I should be able to adapt more. I think I'm getting back to being able to resist sugar; it's been 2 days and I was able to push away the chocolate cake that my wife and kids are enjoying. But the fog and fatigue persist: I have to lie down every 2 hours and take a 15 min nap.

I really hope this gets better soon. This is no way to live.