I bounce between saying that maybe once you're there and doing it, it will be nice and saying that you need to do what you feel is best.
I think that people don't understand how utterly debilitating anxiety is and how sometimes, it is out of our control. If you don't feel comfortable going, then family of all people should understand that. You should put yourself first and do what is best for you. And sometimes that means saying no.

I hope you've come to a decision that makes you happy.

: Hugs: