I need to write this somewhere otherwise I risk going down the rabbit hole. I understand the scanty detail, but it obviously leaves me with lots of questions that will never be answered...
It was hard going from two sessions a week to one, but we did it. Then you have a short break away last week. I got back onto an even keel and I am glad about that. I was looking forward to seeing you next week though, to starting again? I had some stuff written to go through. But today you send me a text. You have had a bereavement. I am really sorry about that. On your week off too. You won't be able to meet on Tuesday now. I know it's none of my business but I am wondering and worried about who it is. One of the downsides of knowing more about your family than I probably should is that I then worry, when things like this happen. I just have to try and tell myself that I will never know. I have to try and respect you and your privacy especially at a time when you are dealing with (possibly, probably) the heartache of losing a loved one. Parent? Not sure, given what I have gleaned. Child? Grandchild? God I really hope not. Distant relative? Not sure that would cause you to miss a week of work though.
So, to myself. Let T work through her own life. It is not my problem or my responsibility. Life happens. Good, bad, happy, sad. T knows that. She is hopefully able to grieve, to deal with it, but that needs time and she is doing the right thing for her by taking that time. And the right thing by me trying to explain that the reason for cancelling is with her, not me. In doing the right thing for her she will hopefully be in a position to help others again one day. And maybe teaching me that sometimes it's ok to take that time. To say "I can't".