Sometimes at night I think about how other people treat people in their live.
How they just dismiss them as a person with human feelings. How there is just this evil, scary truth behind most of their behavior.
I know that I am not angel or always good oralways nice.
But there is always a certain respect or aknowledgement of feelings of someone else that I would never dare to ignore.

To give an example:
There was one time in 10th or elventh grade where someone that was bullied ( I was bullied a lot too) that had lost her mother due to a stroke 2 years ago.
I remember waking to class and I overheard how one my classmates joked about her mother being dead. Everyone around him laughed. Someone even followed up on his joke.

Stuff like that happend a lot. Not just to her.
A guy I considered a friend who I even got along with great for a lot of years suddenly said this to me:
Nobody likes you. Nobody loves you.
There was more to it but this words stuck with me. It came so suddenly and hurt so much.

How can someone say such things? How do they just dismiss someoneleses feeling just like that?

I see that in alot of people around me. This almost angry, vengeful and evil part. They have a look on their face that just tells you that they despise other people or think of them to be less then they are. This cold almost threatining stare.

Though there is one part of my that just wants to be like that. It would probably easier for me to live.
No fear. No care.