Instances like this highlight the power differential between us and I hate this lack of control which I experience. I want to control you and I want you to be only what I decide you can be. Of course, I am hurt and I feel desperate. And of course, I am expressing this pain through my hostility and unpleasantness towards you. I meant it when I said I hate working with you. I do hate it. I hate that you are important to me and how easily this reveals my vulnerability. I hope I have ruined your day, although no doubt you have shrugged off this morning and you are not giving me second thought beyond how vile I am.