Mixed emotions today.

Just done Covid test; negative. So that's not reason why I feel so rubbish.

Another fraught conversation with mother earlier, after another 15 minutes of her not drawing breath and saying she doesn't know why I don't want any contact with her, she terminated call. Not before turning on tears and calling me everything horrible because I don't care about her.

"Damned if you do and damned if you don't"