Welcome! So Sorry for what is happening! i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters about you having a right to your feelings. Unfortunately things like this can happen and i don't think it is your fault. i'd have suggested couple counseling but from what you worte it seems like she isn't very cooperative. i think seeking counseling for yourself may be a good idea as it does seem like you're going through a lto right now. Take some time for yourself to decide where to go next. i Hope things will Improve soon for everyone and everything. Hugs. Please do not give up. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @PainfulMemories, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!