I didn't even know I had PTSD until it was too late. I also have schizophrenia. I've found with the right meds, and cutting out toxic people, and toxic situations/environments, that I'm doing okay. I've also found love, and experiencing that, even if it's only fleeting, has opened me up. I'm sorry you're going through this but there is hope. For 8 years I've been struggling, and I've found peace and calmness finally. I'm moving a few more pieces on the chessboard for long term care, sometimes a new home is needed, a new job, low stress, better friends, less baggage. There's always hope.