I thought about what I might have got wrong prior to my psychosis.

Something like do I want to be in a man-made experience machine where only happiness is the goal? (most university courses feel like this)

Or do I want deeper contact with reality, not an artificial man-made reality?

Do I want to actually do things rather than just have the experience of doing them?

And the biggest question of all that I didn't see coming - what kind of person do I want to be?

I wondered - many of the people in my treatment group were people who had dropped out of university - I didn't - but I still experienced the above reality.

I wondered whether people have experienced anything similar?