i have tried to put up a normal act for friends but i was never truly able to hide myself. The result is that i've never felt truly accepted. i agree with all the other wise and wonderful posters that people can see through the act or at least some of them can. i think Honesty may be the key. Sometimes a little effort from us may be required though. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @The Madcap, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!