I barely slept last night. I got about an hour of sleep and I don’t even know what time I fell asleep but I woke up when Jimmy Fallon was on. Then I stayed awake until 3:30. And then I fell back asleep for 45 minutes around 8:30. But I couldn’t make it to breakfast with my aunt. I really wanted to try this places chocolate banana pancakes. I also couldn’t make it to the baby shower I stayed in the car. The pain was just too much standing up and moving around a lot. Sitting down I was ok so the car ride home wasn’t bad. But I am home now in my own bed and I am just completely wiped out physically. Nothing mental health wise today although last night was a bit stressful. I took one narcotic this morning and I just now took 2 extra strength Tylenol. So I’m managing the pain fine. But I have this giant binder/bandage on and it’s making me look huge with a t shirt on. I can’t take it off until I see the doctor in a few days. It’s also covered in blood and I hope it doesn’t attract my cats. I’m not sure cats are like that though.

Edit: despite my pain I’m feeling a lot better. I finally was able to get my meds correctly. I was only able to take a propanol yesterday morning and then at night I realized I forgot my Geodon 80 for today. So I took an 80 last night and a 20 this morning. I also went way down on my Xanax yesterday and I only took one yesterday at 11PM so that was about 24 hours without any. I was worried about mixing them with opiates. The nurse said it would relax me though. But now that I am confident I can get by with Tylenol from now on, I was able to take all my regular stuff tonight.

I also ordered groceries for tomorrow morning at 11. I don’t want to go out since I feel like I look like Quasimodo and I can’t shower, but I don’t want my mom to have to go out either for me and look for a bunch of stuff that will take forever to find. Pickup is still free at Walmart.