I'm beginning to feel that finding love is a pipe dream for me-- I've seen this guy a few times and he's okay, but I feel like he's stringing me along. He doesn't want to commit yet, which I totally understand, but he's not being terribly attentive or communicative. I don't think he's equipped to have a healthy relationship. I just went on a date with a guy today-- he's really smart and funny, but frankly, he doesn't really appeal to me or turn me on. I know that's a horrible thing to say, and of course I'm not perfect and gorgeous either. But if I don't feel anything for him, I don't. And he's bugging the crap out of me with all his texts now. Sometimes I think I'm looking in the wrong places, but I also worry that there isn't anyone out there who's right for me. What I'm looking for is a long-term relationship with a guy I can learn from, have great experiences with, grow with, have amazing sex with, and who I can trust. But I'm 35 years old, and it's tough to find guys in your thirties because you're more set in your ways and have a better sense of who you are and what you want in lift than people usually do in their twenties. I'm on a dating website, but frankly it's not going very well. I'm either too conservative or too liberal for the guys on there, and even if I'm not, it's tough finding a guy who is willing to potentially move further west, which is what I hope to do. That's more understandable than the political aspect, because a lot of the guys I date from there already have kids from previous marriages and jobs here in Denver, and I don't want to separate anyone from their family or job. Maybe I should just give up and go back to fwb relationships.