So Sorry things are being a bit hard! Please Do not give up! i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters about considering moving there and dating afterwards if that is possible. Finding the right person can be hard i think but i don't think it is absolutely impossible. It may require a little bit of time though. Hopefully things will go well. Please do keep us updated if you can and want to. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @indigo1015, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!