I’m so angry with you right now. We have discussed how much breaks in therapy affect me. We have discussed that all of these emotions and feelings make my relationship very push-pull with you before and after breaks. We have discussed that when I’m in that ‘pull away’ mode I am likely to act impulsively and cancel the next session. We have discussed that I usually end up regretting that decision and end up crawling back to you. So why the hell would you fill my session when you know what my behaviour is. I only emailed you on Friday afternoon and then when I email you first thing this morning you tell me ‘sorry I’ve already filled your slot.’ You hadn’t even emailed me back acknowledging the fact that I asked to cancel. Are you trying to teach me a lesson? If so it’s a very cruel lesson. I feel completely rejected and abandoned. I don’t know how to deal with this anger, it makes me want to retaliate and be cruel in some way to you. I want to hurt you like you have hurt me.