I've been having some pretty serious self harm urges. It's so hard. I'm praying that God takes them away from me.


Tomorrow will be 500 days without self harm. I don't know if these urges are real (I do feel emotionally overwhelmed) or if it is some sort of self sabotage.


I don't trust myself to self harm safely. I know if I self harm it will require stitches and it will necessitate a trip to the ER and it could land me back in the psych hospital. I KNOW all of this. And yet the urges remain.


I'm following my crisis plan. I've alerted some friends. I am talking on here. I haven't set up a plan with my new therapist so I am just using my old plan. He did say to squeeze some ice which I might do a little later on. Stupid urges remain.

Just wanted to get them out of my head. Thanks for listening. HUGS Kit