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Originally Posted by Whereto52
That I repress emotions could be a possibilty. I remember feeling to much stress when I was younger. A lot of stress. Every night I would grind my teath and have nightmares. During the day was always a feeling of dread or anxiety.
Maybe my brain started do disconnect from my "core" emotions to not get into that kind of state anymore. But I wouldn't how to change that. To become more aligned with my emotions, I mean.
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YES. That's what happened to me at age 18. I had too much stress just like that and then it all just shut down like that eventually. I simply could not live in reality anymore like that. Simply because it was too much stress at one point, I mean emotionally, yeah.
How old are you? I saw in another post of yours that you mention being a student. So you are young, yes? You mentioned it might be worth going even paying out of pocket. YES, it's worth it. I wish someone had told me back then to go to therapy. To some therapist that would've been able to understand me. Please, do not wait too long. I waited ten years with my dysthymia with shut down emotions just like this, I did things, I did to go university, etc. but I really only enjoyed talking to people online, no longer in real life. I waited ten years...before it turned into a bipolar episode and a lot of MESS all over the place emotionally. Yeah. It did start healing too, but.... it got worse before it got better, because I still got no help back then. This was also nearly ten years ago - twenty years in total. Not too great eh? I first tried to go to therapy more often 6 years ago. To IRL therapy only 5 years ago, though. Also a lot of psychoeducation.
You asked how to get through this, how to get your emotions back. I really don't know tbh, I think the ten years were just too long for my brain and the "flood" just came out anyway. Some people did "precipitate" it but it would've happened anyway I think. It was just so much mess initially and it still is. Even though it's less mess it's still alot, lol. I think if you find a good therapist it can help though. Primarily to address the stress that overloaded your brain like that. Do get a support system too, that's crucial aswell. Just don't wait too long!! It will just be that much harder to fix it if you wait!