24/7. Has been that way for over 9.5 years.

First it was just me trying to get through episodes, and the like.

Then it was getting therapy, psychoeducation and then I would process things all day. Or I'd try to work but I really was only doing the work to stay over the surface and not drown (needed it to have a purpose/direction)

It still is really like that, I guess now I can sometimes just enjoy things, and not just constantly process stuff, or read up on psychology for it etc. But still nearly 24/7 really and the work I do outside the psychology/processing still is me barely keeping over the surface.

All this is really because I spent a full decade not doing any of this and I just had the really bad anergic dysthymia, unmanaged and everything. There is a lot to catch up on. Not just those ten years, but also what I had going on before it, a lot of stress with zero support whatsoever until shutdown at the age of 18.