@Alive99 You’ll get to where you want to be, emotionally, at some time in the future, and you are on your way. It takes as long as it takes. I believe humans get hurt emotionally, and heal, just like when our bodies are hurt physically. It just takes however long it takes. Just like healing our bodies; rest, self care are doctor’s orders for healing.

In emotional scars, it takes processing. I know psychology articles say to not dwell in the past, but I needed to do a lot of ruminating to figure out what happened, how much was me and how much was them, grieving, reframing, bargaining, lol… There wasn’t a thought I missed! And I think it helped me.

I have and keep making effort to repair relationships that went astray. Yeah, these people really treated me like they didn’t care about me… they really didn’t. But, for me, it serves me best to forgive them by realizing how they stand in their shoes. I eventually came to have compassion for them. I am wiser and will not be fooled into thinking they were the great relationships I thought they were, but I do want to feel connected to these family members.

IDK what happened with you, and I get the feeling these people who hurt you are not ones you want to reconnect to. It sounds like they were con artists who used and discarded you. I can say (without even knowing your story) that I am sorry they hurt you and that no one deserves to be treated like crap. I know it made me feel better for someone to listen to me, believe me, and tell me as I just told you. I hope it helps you in your healing process.