So Sorry you have to put up with this! Please do stay Safe! i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters. Please do consider therapy and definitely try to stop the alcohol and the cutting as soon as you can. Hopefully things will improve soon. Try to do what you can. Hugs. i think you can manage through this. Try to do your best. Much Love to everyone. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Unipolar, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!