I'm glad things are improving. One of the hardest things to learn (and trust) is that relationships of any sort are not perfect - "perfect" is just not obtainable. Relationships are, by nature, sometimes messy because we are, by nature, messy. But a solid relationship withstands the mess. The mess doesn't mean anyone even intentionally set out to do harm or even actually caused harm; sometimes things just happen that end up that way and we feel harmed by the sequence of events moreso than the actual person. It's important to distinguish a bad series of events from a bad person.

Being able to tolerate the messiness of relationships, to not expect them to always go as planned, to not fall into that black and white thinking of this is ALL good or this is ALL bad, is really important to the sustainability of a trusting, healthy relationship of any kind.

Glad you are feeling better and just allowing this time to work itself out rather than reacting too quickly. The impulse sometimes is "I have to do something RIGHT NOW to feel differently," when generally the better thing to do is slow down, sit with it a bit, give it a bit of time, and allow that healthy relationship the trust it deserves to heal.