Ok, so in order to help me try and manage these feelings I contacted old T. Wonder what she'll say. Just kind of need someone that knows and understands right now. I hope she is there. 5 weeks is a long time, on top of the two we've just done. We broke for longer for Covid but that was agreed? And it didn't bring up all these feelings for you. Worry. Unknown. Out of control. Wanting to sit outside your house and try and glean what's happened. That isn't healthy, for either of us! I'll do my best and give you the space and time to deal with your life, but in the meantime I have to deal with mine too. And this is one way for me to do that... I think?