You say something that surely you knew would trigger me. I break down, sob for most of the session to the point of retching and very nearly vomiting and then when I finally start to calm down, your response is to say you didn’t mean to trigger me and you didn’t want that to happen but there’s no point in dwelling on it. WTF???? Do you actually give a flying f*** that you really really hurt me and caused me a huge amount of pain and essentially re-enacted a traumatic experience that I have told you about. Don’t dwell on it???!! You might be able to just move past it but I’m afraid I can’t you utter b*st*rd.
I need to get out of this ‘therapeutic’ relationship as it’s become toxic and harmful. You are not skilled enough to work with people with complex trauma, in fact you are utterly clueless. But l I don’t know how to leave without causing unbelievable pain to the child parts that have become so attached to you and retraumatising them by yet again losing an attachment figure that was supposed to care about them.
Suicidal thoughts extremely active tonight, not that you would even care.