Hello everyone! This is coolbreeze74. I'm the one with the schizophrenic adult son and I was having 4-6 hour long horrific panic panic attacks. For some reason it went back to one of my old usernames.
Well I was put on a whole bunch of meds to stop the panic attacks. I'm still not on benzos, just other meds. I'm doing better, I still have a lot of anxiety but no longer having those horrid panic attacks.
Right after the January 6th attack on the Capitol my son was very delusional.
Hes been there since March. He is not participating and there is no way he can come home. He had been becoming more and more violent with me. I was afraid to call the police bc I didn't want him having a huge record. But when he hit me in the head I had to call the police and go to the emergency room. It was quite traumatic! He has apologized profusely and he really thought that the nazi's were going to take over the country and that I would be forced to take him somewhere to get brainwashed. It was horrible that he was so delusional. He spent 2 months in jail and I wasnt allowed to talk to him. One of my sisters was a saint and was his rock while he was in there. I'm very grateful.
Hes not doing that well. Hes complying with meds but he thinks nobody there likes him and wants me to solve all his problems. I go visit him frequently and he came once for an overnight visit but it didn't go very well. He started getting aggressive and I just don't feel comfortable having him come stay the night again. He will never be able to come and live with me again. It really was miserable the last 2 yrs. And I know he wouldn't stay on his meds and I have my own problems. He is almost 26. I would love to see him participate and do something anything to improve his life. We haven't taken his TV or game systems out there yet bc his case manager wants to see him make some kind of improvement first.
Its been difficult but I'm adjusting. I just started on a weight loss journey and walking back and forth in my hallway. My back is killing me. So I'm starting slowly.
Anyway I'm just looking for some support.
Hope everyone is well.
