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Originally Posted by Soupe du jour
@ rose1985, I'm sorry to read about your struggles with your son's illness...and his own struggles. I thought I'd mention that you're situation is shared with some others. I once had a friendly online pal on another bipolar forum site that had a similar situation as yours. She has bipolar disorder and had to send her son to live with his father because her son beat her often. Like your son, hers has a mental illness that contributes to the behavior. It is sad how such illnesses manifest in such ways. I'm sure you are a loving mom and that both sons love their parents. I am sending well wishes that proper treatment and therapy will make a huge difference. So often patience is required. |
Thank you soupe for your kind and understanding support!
Yes we are very close. I hope I didn't come off cold about him but right now I'm trying to set some boundaries with him. We talked Wednesday night and he kept calling me the c word bc I wont let him have an overnight visit right now. It is difficult. And I contributed bc I let it get so bad. But I felt so trapped. His father abandoned him when he had his first psychotic break when he was 19. He was never really a father to him and hes a qanon believer! He doesn't believe in meds so it's best hes not in his life, it would just confuse my son. His dad has a master's degree in IT! But he is a trump supporter through and through. I'm very progressive.
Oh the help there, dont even get me started! They try but they are overworked and underpaid. I've come at odds with his team a couple times now. It's too complicated to go into here but there have been many nights I can't sleep and I'm just worried sick! I love him dearly.
Hopefully next Wednesday we will have a team meeting again. 2 of my sisters will go too. I'm waiting for his case manager to get back to me regarding that.
It is absolute torture knowing he feels so alone. I make suggestions and he shoots them down. He says the only thing that brings him hope is if he can come back to live with me. I'm not willing to go through those last two years. He really hasn't changed and I know it will just go back to how it was. Maybe not right away but it would.
Once again, thank you for your support! I really appreciate it. You are very kind!