So Sorry For your Losses! Please do not give up! From what you wrote it seems like the problem may be more the environment you're Living in rather than any internal problems right now. Even if you can't move into another country perhaps moving in another town or neighborhood may prove Helpful? Sorry if that sounds stupid. It is good that you're trying to learn some languages. i Hope you will be able to move if that's what you truly desider. Just try to cope in the best way possible and perhaps see if there are other people near you whom you may be able to socialize with. i Hope things will improve soon for everyone. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Biba_yu, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!