So Sorry things are being hard! Please do not give up! i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters about Hoping that you are doing Ok. Is it possible for you to see another doctor? From what you wrote it seems like you don't particularly like your current one. Just a thought perhaps. i Hope things will improve soon for everyone really. Please do keep us updated if you want to and So Sorry that i'm replying late. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @katydid777, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!